~~kEhILaNgAnNyE cUkUp bErMaKnA bAgIkU sEmUa~~

26.5.2011..

nie la trikh yg amat menyedihkn bg aqoo sekeluarga..

pada trikh nie aqoo sekeluarga telah khilangan seorang ibu yg paling aqoo syg kt lam dunia nie..

tapi pew kn daya akhirnye mamaku telah kembali ke rahmatullah...

cdey yg x terkata bg kami smua...hnya tuhan sje yg tahu cmne prasaan kmi smua...

aqoo sekeluarga hnye de seorang ibu yg d pnggil mama jew cz ayhku pn telah kmbali ke rahmatullah pd 16 thun yg lalu..pas 2 mama pula pergi mninggalkn kami sndirian..

ntah la kn...xtau nk ckp pew..perit ase ati nie..cmne aqoo nk hdapi hri2 yg kn dtang tnpa mama d sisi..aqoo terlalu merindui mama aqoo...aqoo ase cm nk ikut jew mama aqoo tp 2 smua xmngkin berlaku..mngkin tuhan lebih menyayangi mama aqoo..

mybe smua nie jlan yg terbaek wt mama cz slame nie mama da lme mnanggung kesakitan yg dihadapinye..aqoo xsnggup tngk mama mnderita ag..

tp aqoo terlalu merindui mama...

stelah pmergian ayhku...mama la pengganti ayh n ibu kpd kmi smua..

mama la segala2nye bg kami smua...mama terlalu b'makna bg aqoo n kluarga..

tp nape mama prgi dulu..nape bkn aqoo jew yg prgi..

aqoo xtau nk wtpe ag..aqoo ase hdup aqoo cm xdak mkne daa...

aqoo da xkuat ag tuk hdapi smua nie..kekuatan aqoo da ilang..

kekuatan aqoo da xde..

aqoo hnye prlukan mama wt mse nie..

aqoo tol2 prlukan mama..

mama la sumber inspirasi aqoo n sumber kekuatan aqoo..

mama la tmpat aqoo mengadu,tmpat aqoo mluahkn isi hti,tmpat aqoo b'manja,tmpat aqoo bergurau n smuanye laaa...

tp skang aqoo da xley wt smua 2 daa..aqoo da patah smangat...

cmne nie...ya Allah tolonglah hambamu ini..

aqoo xsnggup nk hdapi smua nie..

t'lalu bnyk knangan aqoo ngn mama...

mama...........................lau la mama ley dgr yg kah rndu sngt2 kt mama...

kah prlukan mama...hurrmmm...:'(

mama.....

mama....

mama....

mama....

nape t'lalu cepat mama tnglkn kami smua...

kmi da xde sape2 daa skang nie...

xtau la cmne nk hdapi time bln puasa n time raya nie..

ase cm xdak mknenye ag...

xhepy lngsung ase tau..

ase cm xnk raya jew..

agpn xhepy la mama xde..

kami xtau la cmne bila tibe saat2 2..

mama....hurrmmm...

miss mama sngt2...

miss ase time kte sme2 dlu..

kami semua syg sngt2 kt mama..

mama sntiasa d hti kami wlaupun mama skang da tiada...

hope mama d tmpatkn d klangan owg2 yg beriman...

amin...

...hOpE kOrAnG bAhAgIa...

aqoo da xtau nk ckp pew ag..

bila d fkir2kn mmg skit n perit ngat ati aqoo skang nie..

kecewa n mcm2 ag yg aqoo ase..

smpai ati kamoo n dia xnk gtau aqoo hal yg sbenarnye..

aqoo xkn mara tp aqoo juz nk kpastian jew...

susah sngt kew nk gtau smua nie....

aqoo tnye cz aqoo xnk daa merana n jd xtntu arah cmnie..

aqoo xnk berharap lagi..

lau smua 2 btol..

aqoo akn trime ngn seadanya..

aqoo xkn gngu hidup korang lagi..

tp susah sngt kew nk mengaku smua 2..

slh kew aqoo tnye..slh kew aqoo juz nk tau kpastian..

aqoo da xlarat ag daa ngn smua nie..

aqoo da pnat..

plezzzz sngt2...gtau la kt aqoo hal yg sbenarnye..

aqoo xnk d tduh rampas pkwe owg ag..

nape smua owg xprnh nk fhm prasaan aqoo n pew yg aqoo ase slame nie..

aqoo da b'berapa kli b'tnyekn hal nie pd kdua2 belah pihak..

tp msing2 xnk mengaku..

susah sngt kew..susah sngt kew??

bila aqoo tnye depa sl nie..depa suh tnye dak 2 lak..

nape xnk gtau..nape...

jgn la seksa aqoo cmnie..

aqoo pn de ati n prasaan gak..

kdang2 2 aqoo ase cmburu sngt2 lau tngk yeowg mesra jew kn..

tp aqoo xksah cz aqoo skang da xdak hak tuk smua 2 ag..

pmpuan ane yg xcdey lau tngk owg yg ye syg mesra ngn owg len kn

wlaupun skang da xdak pape...

ntah la kn..aqoo pn xtau daa cmne ag caranye tuk mlupakn die..

aqoo t'lalu syg kt ye..maafkn aqoo..maafkn aqoo...

plez maafkn aqoo cz skang still xley lpekn kamoo..

to muhammad faez n faizatul akmar..

hope korang bhagia yerk..

akma..sory lau kte2 kah wt akma trase..

kah xb'mksd nk wt cm2..

tp 2la pew yg kah asekn slame nie..

maafkn kah cz skang kah still xley lpekn ye..

maaf sngt2 akma..

tp kah bhagia ble tngk korang bhagia..

sweet sngt tngk korang..hepyy jew..

hope korang kekal ek..

plezz..jge la ye bek2..

kah syg sngt2 kt korang...

pas nie kah xkn gngu korang ag..

so skang kah da fhm laa...

wlaupn korang xgtau..

hope p'hbungan korang kekal slamenye..

amin..

btw..sory a lot faez cz kah da lukakn ati kamoo..

maafkn aqoo..maafkn aqoo..

thanks a lot 4 being my frenz n my special person in my life

salam..

~~LoVe~~

Standing, holding your crying face in my arms,

i look up with tears to the stars,

i close my eyes and take a long breath,

and wish with all the heart that i have left,

let him stop hurting, let his tears be few,

let his life be happy, and his loves be true,

let his family know he is someone great,

let him be in an eternal content state,

he is my love, my life, and my hope,
and i am his angel, his help, and his life boat,

i will not let them harm his bleeding head,
i will give him laughter, strength and love instead,

so cry no more sweet child of fire,
for i look after you the one i admire,

call my name when you so need me,
and i will come in half a heartbeat,

remember my face when tears fill your eyes,
i will torch their darkness cut out their lies,

we will mend our wings together and fly towards the sun,
and you can be strong when you tell them your done,

keep me in your heart and always look to above,
for i will be your friend, angel and your eternal love!

remember me when you need me most,
you know i'm here!

jUz sAyInG...

I didn't really have you,

you weren't labelled mine.

 But you were.

 And i want every second, minute, day i spent with you, back.

 I'd take full advantage.

 I hope that theres a reason i'm not over you yet..

 the reason being; 

we were meant to be <3 <3 <3

...I've realized...

Girls tears only seems to fall when they don't know

What they're gonna do anymore to try to be happy.

They cry cause they are fighting against

those feelings that are telling them to let go. ,

but knowing that if they let go. ,

they might regret it.

and they're just trying to figure out

whats going to happen

if they keep holding on. ,

and if they're willing to go throw

with all the pain thats needed

just to keep fighting.

juz bOwInK...HuHuHuHu

i miss u so much..

even if you're not for me

 I still love you ...

I do not know how to dispose of the strong feelings for this.....

I get stuck..

So suppose you owned me .. 

I was the happiest person on this earth ..

 but that all is not possible ...

not possible ...

but I want you to know that ,

I really love and will love you forever .. ;'(

~~wHeN i MiSs HiM~~

I miss him so much but he wasn't meant for me...

And I'll accept everything

I trying 2 forget everything about him but then I failed

I miss him..a lot

love is a cycle 

when you clash

u hate him/her so much

u r trying 2 forget bout him

eventually u're starting 2 miss him again

then ur falling for him again..

..Freeze This Moment..

We were sitting on your rooftop

Staring at the skies

The sun was dipping lower

I looked into your eyes

You saw what I was feeling

I know you felt it too

We wanted time to just stand still

Then forever there'd be me and you

Why can't we freeze this moment?

Return to it in time

Stay together through the years

Proclaim I'm yours and you are mine

So let us freeze this moment

Store it safely away

Even if we leave this place

We'll return to it someday ..

..aKhIrNyA sEmUaNyE tElAh bErAkHiR..

hurrmm..korang tau x..

setelah sekian lama hbungan aqoo ngn si dia akhirnye

kami tol2 clash..aqoo xtau daa nk gtau n nk trangkn pew ag kt ye

agr ye fham..tp smua 2 hnya laa sia2 jew..aqoo jew yg slalu berhrap

supaya hbungan kami kn bersatu kmbali tp tu smua hnyalah

impian yg xmngkin berlaku kn..

mmg pedih n terguris ngat ati nie lau owg yg kte tol2 syg

xp'cyakan kte kn..kte tau kte hnyalah mnusia yg xperfect..

tapi nape?????????

bsar sngt kew ksalahn yg aqoo da wt kt ye smpaikn ye xnk p'cyekan aqoo lagi..

jhat sngt kew aqoo nie...

hurrmm..tp pape pn xpelah kn..aslkn kte tau dri kte cmne..

mybe smua 2 da ktentuan tuhan..tol x..

tp nape la stiap mse aqoo asyk t'ingtkn n rndukn ye...

ntahhhh laaa...aqoo sndiri pn da pning kn..

nape la smua nie hrus b'laku kt aqoo..nape???

xlyak kew aqoo memiliki kbahagiaan

xlyak kew aqoo memiliki smua 2..

arrgghhhh....aqoo xtau daa nk wtpe ag..

aqoo da cbe tuk lpekn ye tp still xley..

tp ri 2 aqoo t'nmpk si dia ngn sowang dak pmpuan kt kdai mam..

btapa t'kjutnye aqoo n luluh sngt2 ati aqoo time 2..

aqoo xsngka sngt2..

slame nie aqoo t'lalu mnghrapkn ye..

bdohh kew aqoo nie..hurrmmm..

aqoo t'lalu sygkn ye...cmne nie..

ya Allah..bantulah umatmu nie dan bimbinglh aqoo kearah kbenaran..

berilah aqoo ktenangan..

jika dia jdohku..satukanlah kami..

lau dia bkn jdoh untukku..tnjukkanlah jlan yg paling t'baek buat kami

untuk menghadapi hari2 yg akn dtang..

dan aknku mnerimanye ngn pnuh keredhaan..

aqoo tau mngkin itulah jln yg paling terbaek yg telah kau berikan kpdku...

tp kpedihan lam ati aqoo msih trase

dan ianya sngt perit skali tuk mlupaknnye..

tp pape pn aqoo da lme maafkn dia n b'hrap agr si dia akn mnemui

someone yg lbh baek dri aqoo..

skang aqoo da fhm nape die amek kputusan cmnie..

aqoo hrap die kn bhagia ngn owg 2..

aqoo hepy ble tngk die hepy wlaupn ati aqoo terluka..

tol ckp owg2 rmai kn..

stiap p'tmuan pasti ade p'pisahan

tapi smua 2 mmg ade hkmah d sbaliknye..

pape pn..thnks to muhammad faez cz da prnah hdir lam hdup aqoo

slame nie,sntiasa buat aqoo hepyy n telah mnjaga aqoo ngn baek..

aqoo akn sntiasa ingt smua 2 n ianya tidak akn aqoo lpekn smpai ble2..

maafkn smua ksalahan yg telah aqoo lakukan pd kamoo slame kte knl..

kamoo tetap yg paling terbaek lam ati aqoo..

..tO mY iMpOrTaNt pErSoN iN mY LiFe..

aq de story nk share ngn korang..

hurrmm..lau nk knl..nie la pic my bluv mom..

haaaa..lawa x mom aqoo....huhuhuhuhu..

msti la lawa kn...hurrmm...tngk lak mom sape..

nie pic pas my mom xsdarkan dri ri 2...

kteowg bwak mama kuaq p jln2 n nk tnangkn dri ye spaya xb'fkir sl p'yakit ye ag..

kteowg wt mama hepyy...

time nie kteowg grau2 n sweet ngath time nie tau tp lam ati xdak sape pn tau btapa sdihnye aqoo skeluarga

tngk k'adaan mama cmnie...sape xcdey kn tngk mom ye skit n dduk jew tas krusi roda cz da xley jln..

lau korang pn msti korang kn ase cdey kn..lau bnde nie kne kt mom korang..

korang ase cmne..msti korang fhm prasaan aqoo kn..hurrmm...

tp nak wt cmne kn...mybe tuhan nk uji ktabahan kami smua..

tp mmg sebak gler r kn..smpai aqoo xsnggup nk tngalkn mama..

aqoo ase cm nk b'hnti stdy jew tau...aq nk jge mama..aq nk tngk mama chat n ley b'jln ag..

tp ble smua 2 kn kmbali cm dlu..ble???

time mama xsdarkn dri 2..aqoo tkut ngat tau..aqoo xsnggup khilangan mama..mama la owg yg paling pnting lam hdup aqoo skeluarga..tanpa mama aqoo xley hdup..aqoo xkuat...

aqoo nk sngt2 mama chat n ley jln cm dlu2...ya Allah..tlg lah hmbamu ini..

makbulkanlah doa2 ku ini ya Allah...

berilah ksembuhan pada mama..

hurrmmm..aqoo xsnggup tngk pnderitaan mama..aq snggup wt pew sje aslkn mama chat n hepyy..

hurrmm...ya Allah..pnjangknlah umur mama..jgn la kamu ambl mama dri kami smua cz kami smua mmg prlukan mama..mama jew yg kami de kt dunia nie..ckup la kami khilangan seorang ayh..mama amat bermakna lam khidupan kami..mama la kekuatan hdup kami adk bradik..

hmm..nie pic abg aqoo n akak aqoo ngn mama..

nie pic abg aqoo yg no 2...

nie pic akak aqoo yg sulong..

nie pic aqoo laa..huhuhuhuhu..yg nmpk sipi2 2 my cousin..

nie la pic aqoo..mama..my sis n my cousin..

sweet ngat time nie...

skang..mama da smakin chat..alhamdulillah..terima kasih ya Allah cz da bri ksembuhan kpada mama..

wlaupun skang still xley jln ag..tp pape pn aqoo bersyukur sngt2...

aqoo nk mama chat n hepyyy...

mama jgn pk sngt ek..ank2 mama sntiasa berada dcc mama wlau pew pn rintangan dan dugaan yg mnimpa..

kami sygg sangat2 kt mama..

u r my lovely mom n we love u so much...

<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

..jUz 4 mY lOvELy fReNz..

salam..lme da aq xupdate aq pnye blog..adoii..sory la cz aq xdak mse laa..sjak 2 menjak nie aq bz ckit..mklum la student la ktekn pas 2 tmbh2 ag da nk dkt final kn..so fhm2 la yerk..

adoii..korunk nk tau x..slame nie bnyk ngat ske duka aq ngn mbr2 aq tau dak..hurrrmm..

ase rndu lak kt mbr2 bek aq nie tau..t'tbe jew ase cmnie..lau la kteowg ley kmpul blik kn best..

ley gduh2 mnja,ley b'mnja2,ley grau2..mmg sweet r time 2..huhuhuhu..

nie la mbr bek aq yg aq paling syg..

n nie lagi sowang..dia ibarat akak aq n mek ja..

ye bnyk bg kteowg nsihat tau..tiap kli kteowg gduh

dia la yg slesaikannye..hmm..rndunye..

ja..ang ingt x time nie..sweet kn..sme2 knekn akak kita sowang nie hbis-hbisan..

lam 2 kte sme2 mndi aising kek kn..hahahaha..

mmg sweet ngat tau..kte men kejar2 lak 2 da la da ngah mlm..

nsib bek la jiran2 kte xmara kn..huhuhuu

time 2 mmg best ngat tau..

tapi skang smuanye duk jauh2..alaaa..

rndu la kt korunk smua..aq syg ngat kt korunk smua tau..

korang la mbr bek yg aq de mse aq jejak kaki ke ganu tau..

korang la yg da bnyk ubah aq dri segi pmakaian tdung tp kdang2 2 aq xpkai gak..

huhuhuhuhu..tolol kn aq..

ja n eda...aq syg korang sangat2..

hope hbungan kte kn kekal smpai ble2 tau..

t de mse kte borak2,peluk2,ketawa sme2 n men kejar2 sme2 ag ek..

aq rndu ngat saat2 2 tau...

hurrmm..k lh..stakat nie jelah dlu ek..

t lau de mse aq update ag tau..

pape pn syg korang sangat2..

love u so much my truly frenzz...

thnksz 4 being my da best frenzz..

mmuuaaahhh...<3 <3 <3 <3

~~nIe PiC gEnG2 aQoO yG aQoO sYg sNgT2...HuHuHu..tHnkS 4 bEiNg mY fReNz~~

hahahaha..time nie aq xmake up..

nie knangan aqoo bersama wafi si bdak tecik..huhuuhuhu

nie la mbr aq...amad..
ye bek ngat ngn aqoo tau...
ye sntiasa de time aqoo prlukn ye..
thnkss mad cz sdi jd mbr kah..

adoiii..lam clas pn smpat berposing kn..hahhahaa..pew nk jd..

nie bdak tecik..nmenye atynn..
ye la dak yg paling tecik skali lam clas aq..huhuhu

bowling time...

kenangan yang paling terindah buat ku..
syg kamoo smua..

..kAmI LaA yG tErBaIk..